things went well lately. mid year exam went well but the result was DISASTER. *cough my relationship with my friends also went well. but sometimes i felt like a bitch but i wasn't the only one. people said to tighten your friendship is if you willing to be honest about yourself. well, that statement has pros and cons too. if you be too honest, people would stab you from back. and if you too secretive, people don't know who you are. honestly, some of my friends do the same. even though we're not close as other bestfriends, but i've seen them everyday of my life. we joked together, we laughed together, we gossiped together but we never cried together. *i never cry in front of them too nevertheless, we are close enough to share what our inner feelings. i felt like a liar if i never talk back about my classmates. i am a liar if i never label my own friends. i am a liar if i never saw them behave like a jerk in front of me and thought, "dia memang macam tu." to be honest, i look everyone in other perspective. but i can't read others mind. the same thing happen when i'm with my friends. some of them said out loud how they feel about their probs, some of them not. well, i don't mind if their behave like that, but, i would like to know you better if you let me see through you. and everyone has their own probs but keep in mind, not everyone can accept you for who you are. so that's why i want to change. i look happy to everyone, talk and all but i have my own probs too. the difference about me is, i never show them.
p/s ; i love my friends :)