Hiatus

I've been hiatus (kinda) for a few months now. I've been busy with my life - the assignments given by the lecturers were brain killer, the drama I had for these few months were amusing but tiring, the disappearance of my energy annoyed me and once again, I lose my spirit. My spirit in writing.

I kept trying, a lot - in front of my laptop, my hands on the keyboard, eyes on screen and music in my eardrums. However, I couldn't think of anything. I was staring blankly at the screen with a few words scrambled inside my brain, wanting desperately to be written at the screen, typed with the keyboard. But there was nothing came out. I wanted to do that, do this, write that, describe this but there was so little I could do. The only thing that kept popping out in my mind was, "I'm not good enough. You are not good enough."

I'm not good enough.

But I promise I'll come back. I'll come back to prove myself that I am good enough. Or I will be good enough for myself. I know I will.